01.29.15 (from archived poetry)

Layers (II)


Without the melting,
I wanted to break it-

Pound fists into each layer,
Scream until the cold shattered,
Hold the pieces up to God so
He might answer my questions.

Without the melting,
I needed to speak it-

Release the stony spray
of my frostbitten heart,
Spit out the chunks of ice
that had stolen my poetry.

But,

Without the melting,
I couldn’t break it.
Without the melting,
I couldn’t speak it.

Without the melting,
without the melting,
I couldn’t breathe.
I couldn’t see.

I couldn’t be—

Without the melting.